.Father Plagued by an emptiness since the reaper came without warning, I've had to face the passing years like a day without morning. I never cry out loud. I stepped from the path I was treading the day you went away Would I have reached my destination if you were here for me today? Would I have made you proud? The fates conspired to take you and your love away from me, but they have never had the power to erase the memory. Of the time we had together. All the things that we did, and all the words you said Still reside within my heart and are replayed inside my head. A cross I must bear forever. Jim.. |
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This page was last updated on: April 8, 2003
The Gift A gift you gave to me so long ago More precious than breathtaking gems more valuable than silver or gold. A gift that altered this simple life of mine. The piece of your heart given freely when love was new to us. A simple act that meant more to me than life itself. A gift to be cherished beyond a mortal lifetime, Still held within the warm confines of my heart. Jim.. |
Nobodys' love Nobody really cares for you, yet Someone shares your nights, And Nobody wants to hold you until morning spreads its' light. Nobody loved you before and Nobody loves you more than Someone. Nobody hides the feelings that Someone is allowed to show And Someone gets to take you where Nobody wants to go. Someone is all that he can be and Someone holds the envy of Nobody.. Jim.. |
My Poetry |
At the moment of awareness At the moment of awareness each morning the first thoughts I have are you Your image emerges without warning sent by a heart that beats true. Then you cling to a moment within my mind determined there to stay No matter what I do I'll find you are there with me all day. I say a prayer that I might hold you one more time before life says goodbye With my love I could enfold you lift your spirits to the sky. Upon this earth no power exists to pull you from my heart. The love that I had for you persists never waning in our time apart. Nobody ever sees the tears that keep welling up inside Flowing softly through the years for the feelings long denied. So as I lay here thinking of you still questioning "what went wrong"? My heart sings out "I love you"! With a passion still lingering on. Jim.. |
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Forget me not Don't forget me, please don't let me, become just another long lost friend. Hold me near you, let me hear you, say our friendship will never end. Do you know how much I love you? How deep my feelings run? Far deeper than the ocean and brighter than the sun. Wondering about you, living life without you. Caught in the fallout of your sweet and lingering kiss. I realise, when I close my eyes the magic touch of your sweet embrace is something that I miss. I'll go on waiting patiently for you to tellme when, you want me there beside you and in your arms again.. Jim.. |
Old Scene I think of you each day old scene About how we were and what might have been. Looking over my shoulder instead of now where I belong, Humming tunes that hold on to me instead of singing a present song. This man at times feels lost these days Searching for elusive light while groping through the haze Always beyond an outstretched hand yet somehow closer than near, With persistant dreams going unfulfilled adding fuel to my fear. I think of you each day old scene My heart commands each image flowing pure and clean. hoping that outside fantasy I'll hear your voice express my name Like you do within my often dream where we play the lovers' game. Jim.. |
Prose |
Loves' Shadow My heart still resides in the shadow that has crossed the barriers of time and space. Cast by emotions of a love once shared, strong enough to blot out the rays of the sun. The minds eye watching precious moments experienced, but now beyond longing, replayed on the screen of memories. Scenes of elation and disappointment in clear bright colours never fading with the passing of years. Heartfelt feelings sent cascading to every pore of my mortal being, igniting the flame inside that inner man, still reluctant to ever let you go. Jim.. |
Searching Just to hold you one more time and look deep into your eyes. Searching for the sign that points the direction to your heart. Hoping to find the corner of your soul that was once my dwelling place. Perhaps I'm there already! Like a prisoner submerged deep inside your being, Waiting for the time you no longer fear to let him surface, to remind you of his unbroken promise made so long ago in a moment of tenderness. "I will love you forever!" Jim.. |
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New Year. As the clock chimed midnight, announcing the year brand new, I whispered a silent toast and raised my glass to you. I remembered the conversation that we last had on the phone, about the simple plan you had to spend New Years Eve alone. As the crowd gathered together to sing out Auld Lang Syne, I merely fumbled with the words as you were on my mind. I pictured me beside you as the world began its' cheer, where we hugged in celebration at the birth of another year. Jim.. |
Holding the hand of the shining moon while Remembering the sun. Wrapped within a silver thread that A summer's day had spun. Dreaming of the promise I shall never see Fulfilled, In denial of an empty space over which Many tears were spilled. An image on a mirror's face reflecting The time gone by, Deepens regret inside the zone that still asks the question why. With echoes of the melody that still calls me in my dreamlike haze I travel on life's highway in a search for golden coloured days. Jim.. |
Idle Thoughts |
Then suddenly you were there. Once again within my dream, walking inside the realm of eyesight yet just beyond touch. That constant reminder of a nagging doubt which sits in the confines of a distracted heart. DeJavu! Your image melting in a wave of silent tears. The sadness of a moment when capitulation was the only resistance offered to a kiss goodbye. Jim.. |
Suddenly |
Alone with silence Alone, cold. Wide awake in the middle of the night with thoughts of only you. Forbidden fruit, ripening with each passing minute. A fantasy replayed countless times over the years once again inside my mind. Two souls united, flying like an eagle reaching for the sun. Dancing as one to the rhythm of passions' heat. Faster. Harmonizing as the beat carries them to the boundaries of ecstasy and beyond. Into the shadow of the afterglow where the blood slowly cools. Freedom. For a spirit that can go where ever it desires.. Jim.. |
Contemplation Countless words in silence written. Moments in contemplation. Solo with my heartfelt emotions. Reaching out with my pen, the only ally in my quest for your heart. The virgin page lies patiently as plans enter my mind. Waiting to convey thoughts to your eyes. Jim |
Unforgettable I see you in the minds eye with every passing moment A hopeless love to be carried for eternity To kiss your lips in imagination drives me beyond Frustration. Screaming out I love you inside my mind Wishing you could hear me. Holding you in my arms within a daydream Praying for a word that shows recognition of A fondness held within your breast. I wish sometimes in moments of emptiness that we Had never met. The ghost of your smile haunting a barren corner Of my heart that seems impossible to fill. Jim.. |
A Fond Farewell, Summers party has come to an end, Time to say goodbye dear friend. Put out the flame that has burned for so long And dance to the beat of a different song. In a box in the corner bury each letter Turn to face another day and pray it turns out better. The joker sat in judgement of the game being played Decided that the edges of our tapestry were frayed. Insecurity stronger than the simple need for fun, Now the time has come to turn our backs toward the sun. Farewell to conversation, goodbye to many years. I close the book in silence and with a minimum of tears. Jim.. |
Letter Can you hear my heart beating as you read the words I write? Do you see the emotions riding the sea of words on each page? Are you aware of the yearning that clings to my soul when we are close enough to touch? My mind imprisoned by confusion and a heart caught between the Sun and the Moon. What I want to be, what I have become. Lost in a land of shadows and dreaming of full light.. Jim.. |
Questions What keeps me thinking of you after all the years apart? Will you ever leave the hiding place you have inside my heart? Why did I ever let you go without putting up a fight? These questions often plague me when I cannot sleep at night! What would I ever say to you if I met you one more time? Would I tell you I still love you or would words be hard to find? In your dreams am I there with you and we hold each other near? Just like me, do you find yourself with feelings that you fear? Whenever you felt lonely did you cast your mind my way? Wishing me beside you to chase your blues away? All these thoughts have remained with me in my wishes, hopes and dreams. Gently stroking on my heart and pulling at its' seams.. Jim.. |
